i had a fantastic weekend. i really really did

i just suddenly had to write this down

theres this sudden rush of relief washing over me, relief of what i do not know. i just feel so so calm. so so happy. so so contented with life that i feel like crying. i didnt do anything huge, i didnt suddenly get a lucky break, i didnt score myself a recording contract, i didnt suddenly receive a truckload of cash, i didnt find a genie in a bottle. yet i feel just so so so so happy

i dont know why

and im probably better off not knowing why. its now exactly 13 minutes past my fantastic weekend. i cant decide wether thats a good or bad sign, but the feelings still there. maybe something good is coming my way. maybe.

i just have this good feeling

and it beats having the feeling that something bads gonna happen by a thousand million gazookas.. wutever that might mean